I Hate....

I hate what you've done to me and who I've become because of you.

You can't just run out to "wherever the hell you want" everytime you're upset about something I've said. You can't demand that I "speak a certain way with a certain tone of voice and a certain look upon my face"...and if I don't then you'll leave.

Here's how it goes: If you leave and refuse to tell me where you're going then I will assume that you're cheating on me again. You really want that thought in my head? You really think that will be good for our marriage? Is it right for me to feel that way? I don't really care (to use your words), it IS the way I feel. There is nothing you can do to change HOW I FEEL!

Good Lord. I so need to post a letter I wrote to you 3 1/2 years ago. It's unbelievable to me that I was feeling that way too. What's more unbelievable is that you got worse...incredibly worse. Lord help me.