I want to believe you

I really want to believe you. I really want to know that what you're saying is the truth. I really want to know that when you say you have told me everything; you really have told me everything. With all my heart I want to believe that you have completely turned your life around and are now 100% with me in our marriage...with JUST you and me.

The problem?

I still feel like there is something you are keeping from me. I'm not sure if it's fear or if you really are keeping something from me. It doesn't matter. You've given me every e-mail and password that you could remember. If you don't want me to know what you're doing, you'll just create another. There are some things I've seen that seem suspicious.

Still, I have to make a decision.

I have to decide whether I'm going to keep doubting and wondering and fearing...or whether I'm going to make the decision to trust you. Like it or not, that's what I have to do. Whether or not I feel ready to trust, I must attempt to trust. In order for us to move forward, I have to trust. This is so hard.

Please tell me you're being honest with me this time. I don't want to be hurt again.

Please.

Don't hurt me again.

-Me (Still your wife and still by your side)